May 2012
1 post
Whats happened?
Is so tense cant let goo i can be cleared . Or feel better
So careful instead of breathing and taking it in.
Gun shy, mistrusting Just Scared
of EVERYTHING
I had to stop drinking so i could think better. being so sweet gets scary
I Cant breath
help me…..
get me outta the water. let go of the hold the worlds thrown at me.
I want some of my innocents back, to be able...
February 2012
4 posts
Ever had that minute of prefect peace ?
Where even a cold winter wind feels more friendly then harsh, and mean.
Just feels like a welcome.
She stands on the shore tall and strong
Alone, but still tall. she walks with a smile.
She can see straight threw you.
everything, She breaths everything. Truth, lies, love,hate,passion, laughter, warmth, everything.
She saw the wolf in...
Lizzy and dustin
* Lizzy reads tarot card, says two versions of yourself the complaint each other.
Dustin replies “here’s bra, and here’s your diaper”
*Lizzy talks about a problem.
Dustin replies “just have sex with a kitty and it’ll all be ok.”
Lizzy looks over and says “WHAT?!”
Dustin replies “Just drink your rum and tea and you’ll be...
Someday it would be nice, if i wasn’t looked down upon for rising my voice.
telling you are in the wrong. I just never been much a fighter, i see a storm coming i run like a coward.
I just cant stand it.
When i don’t run, i use my voice and im punished, called a bitch … an embarrassment.
After every nasty thing they say, they cant handle one txt saying “Oh, shut...
Hello there .... its been awhile .. i know, id...
Poem 1
I have a wonderful sickness.
That i don’t want to cure just yet.
This sickness, has me giddy, me singing and dancing.
Feeling more alive then havent seen in a long time
I stay in the moonlight, still alive at sunrise.
Oh the devil has a charm, a very wonderful charm.
The long lost spark, the passion back
From the life where id know … sleep patterns, When it was time to...
November 2011
2 posts
I Tend to forget this blog.
Today she got up.
After a lifetime of walking on her knees, feeding the blackness.
Only today she saw sun, so she got up
When the blackness was not looking she ran so fast, she made the earth turn with her.
Sunlight hugged her, put color into her pale as milk skin.
So she got up. So did I
June 2011
1 post
Alright, So i am Weak
Miss havein somebody wanting me to come home at night.
everyone comes home sooner or later.
Now i cant seem to shake off what i been running from
Dancing and singing in bars, Drinking away lonely
But you sober up …… or at least i do.
I have a million funny stories .. a few passionate sorties, of just that
passion.
Oh the feedings are wonderful.
I...
January 2011
4 posts
Rants of Jan, 26 2011
Here is the truth.
Your opinion….. is only good when others agree. If it does not compute well then ..
You get shit thrown at you.
im sick of being the one who will help you out, be a good person to you.
Seeing if your day is fine.
Well, guess how im rewarded
… i have a day from hell, i call ….. your too busy
Im belittled in front of people
treated like im a fucking retard
sick of...
November 2010
2 posts
He askd who my gods are
And i told him.
He told me his.
And they where all one
as so are we
Maybe im just being paper thin, I had to catch so much.
But who is going pick me up tonight?
Cause at the night of the battle im mostly likely the one standing alone.
cant you hear silent cries.
So then i look at full luna.
She smiles and gives a cool comfort
Starlight guides till sun rises.
they till mt to smile, walk tall.
shine .
Apparently im alot stronger then i look
September 2010
2 posts
My bite has bitter tastes kids in my town have died
only one was remembered mainly cuz he was a church kid.
the other souls ddint get in ??
No some are still here. pissed off cuz they got forgotten
but i hope they knew i haven’t forgot, i know of others who haven’t
im sorry that your life was cut before you could see the world
even if you didnt miss much.
Its all worst...
I think statring over, manens a new time.
New places.
but what happens when its still the same place.
but i different you. Once you leave a place you can never come back into the world.
i do not require a lot of pampering
Waxing made me smile. Because we women bitch about men being dicks, but then we put ourselves threw it.
But i must be weird cuz it feels goood .
……
...
August 2010
3 posts
.. Be shockd ..... im not mad Lawl Ok so, i...
.. Be shockd ….. im not mad Lawl Ok so, i been told i write to much angry shit. Well….i just post angry shit. i do have tons of love poems… but we all know who that is. And im shy about my love poems ( sooo… dame chessssy love poems ) Unless i can pull it off, that its about...
I wish i could be as evil as i want to be.
Punch face’s in, and tell you that your a dumb fuck for crying.
But oh no, the moment i decide to argue with a complete dick, i get yell d at.
oh yeah i forgot that im supposed to be the submissive shit.
i cant ever tell if your being a jerk to me, cuz oh yeah … YOU DON’T GIVE A FUCK
So tell me why i shouldn’t let my mouth...
Put me in a sack, then smash it with a bat.
Then ask whats wrong.
point at what i eat, then ask why i hate eating with you.
cut me deep. Wonder why am i bleeding,
id like to see you take the beating that i get
Good luck on that.
July 2010
1 post
If i shut my eyes maybe the drifting of the tides would go away.
There shifting away. … Drofting.
Makeing waves.
But the waves are made up of brandy and jack
amber liquids mixing together.
guilty. I’m guilty of letting my emotions fuck me up.
If a blew up at any of you. For your shitty remarks, my feelings or any kind of out burst are considered wrong. not right.
feeling like...
June 2010
3 posts
I’m tired of thinking a cant write a fucking word
cuz your ass will read it and start to cry, soo i cant escape anything or anyone.
I’m trapped in a place where dreams die.
where a cant get a job.
because I’m a college fuck up..
i have nothing but pure rage when it comes to my past.
My past is nothing but broken promises
from myself and others
I’d Like to be able to...
I want to shake the dame princess …
Tell her that prince chramiong is an actuall human who will pis you off.
Lets just see things for how they are .
Its not just sunshine and rainbows…. Pretend all your ass wants but how cant you not see the shit .
The thing is my blinders went away….. Sometimes i wish i could still have them .
Think the best in people
The truth is...
I have a feeling that when shes says ” ill be there “
Shes a lying piece of shit
i have instincts that i cant avoid.
Like being around a completely toxic person. Who will just fuck up anything good that will happen to her.
I believe im stuck in this town always and forever … its just a fact i have to accept
ill never be able to go anywhere , or do anything
im forever...
May 2010
1 post
I look d threw my old blogs, and other random things Ive writing on. i noticed i had a lot of dust and cob webs on one book. I wiped it clean and started to read and i smiled ” To thine own self be true ” it was the only thing my innocent self left for me to read. i remember it now. That feeling of happy. That ray of sun i used to carry with me. Like the fish swimming...
April 2010
5 posts
Little girl. You used to dance, and sing always. Used to walk free
But when someone came along….
They hurt you deep. Tore out your voice .. Cut off you hair
Your beautiful hair … that was envy, Everyone told you how they wish it was theirs
When you holler For anyone. ….. No one came.
Still no one came. When they took something from you.
As much as you cried. No one...
Have you ever noticed that a actual conversation is REALLY hard to come by. Its like you might as well try and pull your teeth one, by one.
Miss you already.
Long coffee hours. Words of wisdom, Personal experice wisdom.
A sure sing that you are still liveing.
You notice the earth. …… Sky ….. water…… the ficker of candles/
The sheer beauty of the storm up above....
Lies.
Im sorry.
but life has the choice of lettin the shit that happens to you, either
A, softens you to a pulp , where you bruise so fast its insane.
Or B ; Thickens your skin to the point where you are to hard to feel.
February 2010
3 posts
I walkd along rivers, while they where clokd in fog.
It calld out to me, travle me,
I tried to run, but it truns out im chaind.
seatnced to life, imn an empty town.
Stuck, my feet are trapd in mud.
icy cold mud.
im never going to leave here.
the banks will me my grave.
i will spned my lfe listeing to them call .
“Fallow us, be free”
… i try but i cant im trapd
...
Horrible.
some times , i feel awful when i want to spite venom,
Some times i feel like im selfish when i want attionton
I some times feel evile … when i want to be a voilnet subject.
passing harm to others, some times venom taests soo much sweeter then water.
i feel horrible when i dont even trust you, …
im wrong for sayin you dont get my freindship when you aboandond me ?….
...
January 2010
11 posts
*** dont take outta contxt ****
It took a bottle, and trusted people to family come out with it.
She cried harder then she had in a long while
She tried to bary all of it.
But it came out, with every sip it spilled more intense into to her repressed memory
She wants to see if she could hold it. She did, it almost ate her alive but she did
Next morning she woke up with a hangover that made her sleep till four in the...
Ever cacth your self likeing what u see in the mirror?….
Yeah that felt good <3
Be at pace
I hope that you can swallow more then a can without breaking.
id hope you could breth in and find the pure air is flowing in our body.
I hope you can come to trems of the bullshit, remember pepole are just pepole in the end
December 2009
4 posts
Maybe someday a should take and be in charge of my life already,
But how do i start.
i was freaken stupid and crush my car. and being who they are, “protctors”//// really i should belessd but GAWD!!!!!!
i havent be able to drive since june…….. yeah… umm i can tell u i learnd my lesson, but they probly wouldnt belive me ( yeah.. i have no faith in pepole beliveing...
…apparently i should keep my darker shit off my blog site….. my bad …..
I think half the time im a fly on the wall,
Most of the time i wish i was. its simple.
i dont need to see or haer anything, i also have no need to gaer myself up for fighting.
And normaily, i always hate haveing pepole over. its one gaint stess, i mean if your not going to have any fun with it, then why deal with it.
i cant stend half the crap.
November 2009
11 posts
I waer fat girl jeans,
im gettin more and more flashes of anger. i think i deamons out to get me.
I like to think i could be inviasble at a drop of a hat.
Being a fly on the wall isnt bad at all.
Image, being part of a moment … Something that pepole would kill to see, and its right there in front you.
No, You wount use it to harm, or to black mail.
Just to know.
Be there.and gain the knowledge
You can come and then go aging … and no one would really know the difference
So, i...
