Maybe someday a should take and be in charge of my life already,
But how do i start.
i was freaken stupid and crush my car. and being who they are, “protctors”//// really i should belessd but GAWD!!!!!!
i havent be able to drive since june…….. yeah… umm i can tell u i learnd my lesson, but they probly wouldnt belive me ( yeah.. i have no faith in pepole beliveing me , or in me, might come from being underestimated for my entire life)
We playd circle of truth, and someone askd “Whats your greatest thing you have done, for you”
….ummm, well i pulld some shit out of my ass.
Truth is, i done things for everyone but me.
i guess i sell myslef short in fear of be a selfish bicth.
i throw away cloths i still like, and put my hair- color my hair to sutie pepole ( ….She cried when it was pink, cuz she was that “Embarass”)
i do things to please.
maybe i should think more about what would make me happy.
… but i did some things.
i overcame bein sad every night.
i over came being around mean peole who just wantd to make sure a was as beatin down as they are.
i mange to be nice.. enought.
My thoughts are mean …. but my actions are still nice.
Seriously, yall shpuld be thanking me for not doin half the shit i want to do to you all, it would have been a freaken fight club
i honestly cant stand everyone sayin how amazing me being defh and blind is ,…. really assshole i dont know any differnt stop actin like i cant wipe my own ass cuz of it.
i mean im fucking Bi-poalr…. so is half the contry, in dougals alone in betting 90% of this town has some kinda depression, cuz life is just that shitty.
Welcome to the real world cupcake.
i mean theres good duh, its just that can dwel on bad shit, but cant act like the world is made souly on ranbows , sunshine, berries, and suger.
PS….. im really tierd of not being around anyone who knows what im talking about.
im sick of really loathing my existance when i look at my body, arnt i supossed to like it??
I wish i felt more suopport in life, i wish i felt like family had some faith in me, like that i could be myself,
i wish i couild have a come back for things, but i guess i just dont have that spanky of an additude to say “Fuck off”
but yeah.. i hate dealing with shit all dame day.
i hate havein an opinion cuz for some pathitc reason i cant freaken back it up.
i guess it cuz im just lame in all shorts of dierctions.
